Saturday, December 18, 2010

It's one of those deep posts. Sorry.

Yesterday was my last day of work. It was almost bittersweet.  I told everyone who cared to ask that I was excited for the new job.  I lied through my teeth.

I'm not as excited as I should be for a new job.  It isn't the best time for me to move to another job as we're knee-deep in looking at houses and considering putting down offers.  It especially doesn't help that I'm moving to a part-time adventure.  Oh, and I only have 7 months of school and a thesis left.

I'm mostly sad.  I had wonderful co-workers. I loved my commute down the hill.  I loved the flexibility.  Two people made my work life hell this year. Enough for me to leave.  Half of the office knows why I chose to leave. More than half have the same issues with the two.  I'm really sad that even at my last day, I couldn't expressed the pent up frustration.  I was disappointed that I couldn't stand up for my fellow coworkers.  I feel like I just walked away.

R picked me up from work last night and said all the right things on the way home.  I don't think it hit me until I got home that I left my first real job.  It was only 2.5 years, but a lot of life happened during that time.

After the initial shock, a day later, I'm just complacent.  I'm not sure what the new job will bring, but I'm not nervous about it either.

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